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gyzym:

 #just look at tony’s face #fucking look at his expression #steve’s kind of just. staring #and tony’s fucking heartbroken #you can see it in his eyes. his heart? it’s broken #all over the fucking place

Goddamn it I really thought I was done with the part of my life where I choked on Tony feelings and spat them all over tumblr, OKAY, HERE WE GO, SORRY GUYS. Trigger warning for discussion of suicide—that’s in the tags too, and kind of obvious given the content of the gif, but for real, trigger warning for discussion of suicide. 

Here’s the deal: Tony Stark has long been in the business of making self-destructive look good. I don’t even really mean that as tongue in cheek—at the end of the day, until he gets to the point where he literally can’t anymore, that is what Tony does. Dying of blood poisoning? Play it cool, don’t mention it, hop in a race car, throw a wild party. Feeling worthless and unloved? Jump in a race car, put on a super suit, risk your life, put it all on the line. Even Tony as we see him in The Avengers, who is clearly supposed to be in a healthier place than the Tony we get to know in IM & IM2, doesn’t hesitate to fly that nuke into the portal, even though he knows it’s almost certain death, and this is because Tony Stark has been courting almost certain death his whole life. Tony Stark, in many ways, really can be summed up with the question, “You got any other bad ideas?” 

And this is, of course, why he’s so quick to understand Bruce, why it matters so much to him that Bruce start looking at himself differently—in some ways, the things Tony says to Bruce are things he wants to say to himself, but never could for whatever reason (years of self-loathing/years of forcible emotional repression/years of neglect and abandonment issues/what have you). Tony really is a fan of the way Bruce loses control and becomes a giant green rage monster, because he gets what it is to not feel like you’re in charge of part of yourself, and to hate that part of yourself as a result. On top of that, Bruce is incredibly intelligent and incredibly self-possessed until he isn’t—of course he strikes a nerve. He would have struck a nerve even if Tony didn’t find himself liking the guy, which he visibly does. 

And then there’s this scene, and it guts him. It guts him because he’s beginning to care about Bruce, of course, but they haven’t really known each other that long, so that’s not all of what’s going on. No, this guts him because this act—the finality of what Bruce tried to do—is a line Tony himself has never crossed. He’s courted death, sure; hell, he’s even knocked on death’s door and yelled “Open up, you asshole, what do you want me to do, just sit out here forever? You just gonna leave me here? Really?” Tony has drank himself into a stupor and thrown himself into situations he shouldn’t have gotten out of, Tony has exacerbated a terminal condition because it was better to die than give up doing the only thing that made him feel like living, Tony has wanted to die, or thought he wanted to. But Tony has never put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. He’s courted death, but he’s never demanded it that way, and the fact that Bruce—with whom he shares so many traits, and for whom he has so much more respect than he has for himself—has gotten to that point, has been brought that low, is fucking heartbreaking. 

The thing is, though: Tony Stark has one of the more intense savior complexes in a cadre of people with savior complexes, and I think this moment was necessary on a lot of different levels. Before this, Tony’s trying (whether he knows it or not, and I’d argue that he doesn’t, at least not fully) to save Bruce—after this, Tony trusts that Bruce will save himself, is there to be support for that instead. And that’s so much healthier for both of them, and much more solid ground for whatever you see in this relationship, be it romance or friendship or team camaraderie.

TL;DR: TONY, BRUCE, I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT YOU GUYS.  

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just-a-happy-camper:

The great stories never end. Each of us must come and go in the telling.

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icoulduseinsouciantmaybe:

mostexcellentcanopy:

And then, even the King began to wonder…

#can i just say the story-telling in this episode was astronomical? #also lestrade #god the poor guy is just trying to solve some goddamn murders before other people get killed #so he saves this brilliant acebric boy from pumping himself full of drugs and hires him on a few cases #and then before he knows it he’s started to rely on him even though he thought it would have been the other way around #but he’d taken it for granted that sherlock would always be there - and why would anyone question him? lestrade’s heart was set #sherlock holmes was a good man and one day he could be a great one #and just when maybe he’s got a foothold on becoming this great man everyone starts to doubt him #and lestrade probably hates himself for it but the doubt gets him too #but now - after the phone call - after hearing the definitive words from molly’s lips and seeing the haunted look of a war lost back on #john’s face it sinks in: this is real and sherlock holmes is dead #and now every time he closes his eyes he sees that boy he helped save who chose to help save others #and all he can think is that the last time they saw each other he was trying to arrest him #and he never got to say goodbye

THESE ARE THE MOST PAINFUL OF TAGS

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inklou:

Delusional

“He used to come in, order coffee, and remain quiet in the corner for the rest of the night. But suddenly, one day, he started speaking and smiling again. But it was at someone who doesn’t exist.”

Donation sketch commission for the lovely Bethany, who requested some Sherlock/John angst post-Reichenbach :) Help Sashi and donate if you can! More info here.

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hippieashley:

ivemissedsomething:

The first and last time they say goodbye to each other face to face…

;____;

oh god oh god it’s the same room and the same door but opposite who’s leaving and don’t mind me, just in the corner crying a little

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televisionismypatronus:

wholockian221b:

bbcsherlockftw:

I was so alone, and I owe you so much.

click & drag.

CLICK AND DRAG.

MY HEART.

Guys.. Click & drag.

NO. WHY.

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hvit-ravn:

I’ll always be with you
SH

PS. I’m not dead
SH

Let’s have dinner
SH

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akapine006:

seawallfilmandrewscott:

A message from Andrew Scott:

Glorious citizens of TUMBLR.

 

I know a number of you have been waiting to see it so here at long last is the release of SEA WALL. It really is a beautiful story; amazingly written and directed by the incredible Simon Stephens and produced by Veracity’s Andy Porter. We’re very proud of it and we really hope you like it.

 

The film essentially is about the importance of love and we made it with that in mind.

 

While we are on that subject, I’d like to say a huge thank you for all the wonderful support during this series of Sherlock. As some of you know I’m not a twitter guy  so I thought I could take this opportunity to say how humbled I am by the passion, humour, imagination and general sexiness of the Sherlock fandom.

 

See you soon.

With big love

ASx

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jam-and-blue-boxes:

It’s what people do, don’t they?

Leave a note?

Don’t mind me, I’m just reading into the fact that for anyone else to leave a note is normal, but for Sherlock fucking Holmes, this is a herculean effort to get his last words out there, just for John. John is one of the few people in the world who he will be human for. To everyone else, he’s an uncaring robot, but John knows he just sees symmetry and beauty where others can’t.

These boys, bringing each other to earth and lifting each other to heights that neither of them could have dreamed of alone…

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televisionismypatronus:

Just look at that expression on his face.

I am going to go cry forever now. Excuse me.

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sherlockspeare:

reapersun:

don’t worry sherlock, he’s fine. this time.

beaumontinvestigations: Can you draw something angsty, maybe like John laying in a hospital bed after an accident and Sherlock crying beside him?

Oh this. THIS.

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