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gyzym:

 #just look at tony’s face #fucking look at his expression #steve’s kind of just. staring #and tony’s fucking heartbroken #you can see it in his eyes. his heart? it’s broken #all over the fucking place

Goddamn it I really thought I was done with the part of my life where I choked on Tony feelings and spat them all over tumblr, OKAY, HERE WE GO, SORRY GUYS. Trigger warning for discussion of suicide—that’s in the tags too, and kind of obvious given the content of the gif, but for real, trigger warning for discussion of suicide. 

Here’s the deal: Tony Stark has long been in the business of making self-destructive look good. I don’t even really mean that as tongue in cheek—at the end of the day, until he gets to the point where he literally can’t anymore, that is what Tony does. Dying of blood poisoning? Play it cool, don’t mention it, hop in a race car, throw a wild party. Feeling worthless and unloved? Jump in a race car, put on a super suit, risk your life, put it all on the line. Even Tony as we see him in The Avengers, who is clearly supposed to be in a healthier place than the Tony we get to know in IM & IM2, doesn’t hesitate to fly that nuke into the portal, even though he knows it’s almost certain death, and this is because Tony Stark has been courting almost certain death his whole life. Tony Stark, in many ways, really can be summed up with the question, “You got any other bad ideas?” 

And this is, of course, why he’s so quick to understand Bruce, why it matters so much to him that Bruce start looking at himself differently—in some ways, the things Tony says to Bruce are things he wants to say to himself, but never could for whatever reason (years of self-loathing/years of forcible emotional repression/years of neglect and abandonment issues/what have you). Tony really is a fan of the way Bruce loses control and becomes a giant green rage monster, because he gets what it is to not feel like you’re in charge of part of yourself, and to hate that part of yourself as a result. On top of that, Bruce is incredibly intelligent and incredibly self-possessed until he isn’t—of course he strikes a nerve. He would have struck a nerve even if Tony didn’t find himself liking the guy, which he visibly does. 

And then there’s this scene, and it guts him. It guts him because he’s beginning to care about Bruce, of course, but they haven’t really known each other that long, so that’s not all of what’s going on. No, this guts him because this act—the finality of what Bruce tried to do—is a line Tony himself has never crossed. He’s courted death, sure; hell, he’s even knocked on death’s door and yelled “Open up, you asshole, what do you want me to do, just sit out here forever? You just gonna leave me here? Really?” Tony has drank himself into a stupor and thrown himself into situations he shouldn’t have gotten out of, Tony has exacerbated a terminal condition because it was better to die than give up doing the only thing that made him feel like living, Tony has wanted to die, or thought he wanted to. But Tony has never put a gun in his mouth and pulled the trigger. He’s courted death, but he’s never demanded it that way, and the fact that Bruce—with whom he shares so many traits, and for whom he has so much more respect than he has for himself—has gotten to that point, has been brought that low, is fucking heartbreaking. 

The thing is, though: Tony Stark has one of the more intense savior complexes in a cadre of people with savior complexes, and I think this moment was necessary on a lot of different levels. Before this, Tony’s trying (whether he knows it or not, and I’d argue that he doesn’t, at least not fully) to save Bruce—after this, Tony trusts that Bruce will save himself, is there to be support for that instead. And that’s so much healthier for both of them, and much more solid ground for whatever you see in this relationship, be it romance or friendship or team camaraderie.

TL;DR: TONY, BRUCE, I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT YOU GUYS.  

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itsbrandonflowers:

brandon, what are you doing

OH GOD. I miss the boylove and the guyliner and the lipgloss and all the glorious GAY that was Hot Fuss era Killers. Also, I just miss The Killers. COME BACK TO ME MY BBS D’:

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cypriots:

I WISH I COULD QUIT YOU

thenoiseisamanunfiltered:

I put together the Noise. You can find it on pp 20-22 of the Knife of Never Letting Go

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likeinlatin:

elethoniel:

Thought it was awesomeamazingbrilliant until the last few chapters of Mockingjay. What the ever loving fuck?! No, really. Did I just read those three books, and invest my emotions in those characters for it to end like that? Jesus fucking christ. I don’t think I’ve ever been so disappointed in a books ending.

Seriously. Okay, I’m going to add my two cents (which basically agree with your two cents, XD). I felt there were three things we were sort of meant to care about throughout the series: 1) will they win the war, 2) will Katniss ever find some sort of satisfaction/happiness to her life, and 3) Peeta or Gale. And I felt all three of those things were handled really badly. I mean, Gale got what, one line about what happened to him? I’m a huge Peeta fan and I’m sorry but that’s bullshit. Don’t get me wrong, I love the series and the suspense in Mockingjay is incredible, I just wish that she’d taken like an extra hundred pages or so and wrapped it up better. Also, I completely agree with you about Katniss and what she turned into. She didn’t want children; she had two. She didn’t like the games, yet she voted to keep them but for capitol children only. The whole thing is just ridiculous and it bothers me how she became just what she said she would never be at the beginning of the series. Ugh. Okay, rant over. XD

Ugh my god, yes. Yes to all of this. I want to be happy for Peeta, but I can’t because it feels like he got his girl by default because of Gale and the bombs. It doesn’t feel like Katniss chose him because she loved him, it feels like she ended up with him because of circumstance, because he was there when she needed someone to lean on. I adore Peeta and I hate that he was essentially snubbed… though, so was Gale, and to a much larger extent.

Yes! I hate that she became all the things she was fighting against. It seems like such a horrible message to send to teenagers: ‘hey kids, don’t worry about fighting for your happiness, cause it’ll all go to pot anyway!’ I know it’s a dystopian future, but dear god, the great thing about novels is that they’re fictional. You can give them the happy ending they wouldn’t get in life! I get that it was probably more realistic this way, but come the fuck on, it’s about a government that sends children into a reality tv show to fight to the death. Nothing about that is real (and even someone as misanthropic as I can’t believe human kind would let that shit go on).

Thought it was awesomeamazingbrilliant until the last few chapters of Mockingjay. What the ever loving fuck?! No, really. Did I just read those three books, and invest my emotions in those characters for it to end like that? Jesus fucking christ. I don’t think I’ve ever been so disappointed in a books ending.

Ugh. Why can I not buy Sinnerman by Nina Simone as a downloadable single?! I have to get the complete album if I want that one song. Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Pisses me off when singers do that. I just want ONE song. Not the whole fucking album. £5+ is too much for one song, ffs.

fulltimeanglophile:

…give him a puzzle and watch him dance.

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drop-of-art:

its-an-ear-hat-john:

reallysherlock:

brickpantsextraordinaire:

Males of Sherlock

Sexy bastards, all of you.

Especially you in the middle, Mr. Cumberbatch.

I hate/love all of you. A LOT.

Ugh just stop it now.

is this even legal?

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ununpentium:

that-was-amazing:

shamelessanglophilia:

what? sherlock smiling and looking happy?

He. Is. GORGEOUS.

I stand by what I said that Sherlock is utterly beautiful in this episode.

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Don’t. Just don’t.

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